well went for a movie today "jaane tu ya jaane na"... i guess that's the name of the movie...shit yaar i am bad with names... the movie was cute somewhere i cud relate to hemant ignoring us like jai did in the movie, well but no love story budding here.. just that leaving having lost a friend a bachpan ka dost yaar.. well as for the special person goes god know where on earth is he.. have i met and lost the person or i know and still dont know that guy... i always thought my ex was the guy the "special guy" somewhere after all that happened and all that's happening i still feel the same but honestly the guy am with right now he really is special but i dont feel that special feeling with him i wish we had been friends best friends than being in a relationship, it screwed it really... i cheated on me i lied to him and i feel so guilty about it... i am sorry..
i love my family yaar but i am loosing it on them too, somewhere i am trying to hate my sister but i know i need her more than anything else but she just inst there, she isnt, she is so busy with her plans to go to UK that i have completely disappeared into the background. i wish i am wrong yaar...
i swear i can at this point of time give a hand an eye and a leg for some peace for some "shanti" as they put it, i want to be contented like i was a few years back i really was things just got screwed a bit out of hand.
But this movie made me laugh made me cry made me remember good times and gave me hope that yes things gonna be okie babes... by the way had a good day over all just that the end evening got screwed, that's why i really think i shld not have gone ahead to name a relationship i wish we had been friends, cause i really think and i believe it now that beings friends is the only way any relation works cause that's the only relation where u dont expect....
