helppppppppppppppppppppppppppppp

wats bloody wrong with me boss.. why am i behaving like a 1st std kid.. mujhe kya pagal kutte ne kaata hai kya.. mujhe kuch samjh nahi aa raha hai..
why the hell expectations yaar.. u know it screws up things mai kyu kar rahi hu yeh sab...

god wats it with me, last 3 - 4 days have been orst boss, i cant handle this, i hate this unseen this not sure feelings. i like being sure yaar.. yeh kya ho raha hai...

i mean this gal who i havent even seen dont have any slightest idea of why am i getting hyper about her, mai kyu insecure ho rahi hu yaar...

there was nothing in the first place to be insecure about cause there is nothing brewing why am i getting so possessive yaar, i dont have anyone to talk to about all this i am really gonna go crazy yaar...

he was never mine so why am i behaving as if he is mine why the fuck, i always said he is my best friend now why am i screwing up the relatioon.. mujhe kya ho raha hai yaar...

god i dont wanna feel like this pls get me out of this plsssss why am i being so insecure , he will be gone tomorrow no matter how hard i try no matter what i think then why am i feeling this today, please get me mind cleared out of all this pls god pls...............................

HaPpY BiRtHdAy !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

happy happy happy birthday............... !!!!!!!!!!

well firstly from the bottom of my heart i wanna wish u a very eventful and a wonderful year ahead.... may all ur wishes come true.. and the smile on our face always remain and may happiness always touch, may god always have his loving care and blessing on you, forever forever and forever........ :)

The plan to celebrate your bday happened all of a sudden and at 10 we had it on our hands now the question was to whisk you away without hurting ur frnds and also with ur consent...

so as it happens my elements leave their hometown in the morning and i from work go to bday boys place and pick him p and go to mac d.. poor boy thinking why on earth has she come all the way from her place to this steel yard to have a burger worth 20 bucks spending 200 bucks on fuel.... :)

so after the burger and chips b boy starts asking wat is it, where are v heading etc so i am sorry my element i had to say half og it to him, i tell him u are coming with guptaji and then the 1st reaction is why are u doing this we might not njoy with him etc and stuff but then when you guys came the smile on his face was awesome he greets you and then walks to guptaji and say the boy talk hello :)

and then we go to his place pick his clothes and off to our destination...

honestly the car helped it really gave us company i swear with the slopes i really did not think we will make it with you oldie but thanks babes you helped us make it, i promise i will love you to death and maintain you...




we reached the hill top and then the gr8 search for a room and finally we got one, it was really beautiful...

it was about 6 when we reached, freshed up and went for a walk to echo point it looked so nice, i wish v could go to our fav place but koi nahi just to be there we will go again... :) clicked pics there and then walked back and the walk back was so serene, we actually had 2 packs befor we went for the walk :P

then we went to kumar for a hokka bloody mila nahi acha hi hua we then went to our room freshened and after bath we sat down for some dudh ki bottle :p

we went on and on and time just flew... and befor we knew it was almost 12 an then i went to the other room cake nikala and lit the candles and came to our room, you were surpirsed right bday boy :) and all high high the candles were blown and then came the ma of all tings the gift, the glasses that i brought by telling you i am buying it for dad ... :) so daddy dearest hope you loved your gift...

the night came and went by, the day eneded but the smile and the happy feeling that happened i hope it lasts forever for you, me and my elemts in tow... :p

then the next morning we came down, thanks my babes (car) she really took care of us and got us down then we went to college, sunday tha sun saan tha and had water just were i met my bestest frnd :D

showed our college and with proudness showed were we played.. :p alag baat hai we also lost a lot of times there :D

we also went to deshmukhs place wish we could stay there... but thats ok we had a wonderful time, met a wonderful person in guptaji and had a rocking group made... :d

just wanna say i hope this will last forever and we will always be there for each other and lastly may all your birthdays be better than the last always :d

love u....

i am sorry...

Please forgive me... i guess you said the truth i never felt the way you did for me... i am sorry.. i screwed it up but i swear i want peace and good things to happen to you always always. please trust me...
i am sorry