helppppppppppppppppppppppppppppp

wats bloody wrong with me boss.. why am i behaving like a 1st std kid.. mujhe kya pagal kutte ne kaata hai kya.. mujhe kuch samjh nahi aa raha hai..
why the hell expectations yaar.. u know it screws up things mai kyu kar rahi hu yeh sab...

god wats it with me, last 3 - 4 days have been orst boss, i cant handle this, i hate this unseen this not sure feelings. i like being sure yaar.. yeh kya ho raha hai...

i mean this gal who i havent even seen dont have any slightest idea of why am i getting hyper about her, mai kyu insecure ho rahi hu yaar...

there was nothing in the first place to be insecure about cause there is nothing brewing why am i getting so possessive yaar, i dont have anyone to talk to about all this i am really gonna go crazy yaar...

he was never mine so why am i behaving as if he is mine why the fuck, i always said he is my best friend now why am i screwing up the relatioon.. mujhe kya ho raha hai yaar...

god i dont wanna feel like this pls get me out of this plsssss why am i being so insecure , he will be gone tomorrow no matter how hard i try no matter what i think then why am i feeling this today, please get me mind cleared out of all this pls god pls...............................

HaPpY BiRtHdAy !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

happy happy happy birthday............... !!!!!!!!!!

well firstly from the bottom of my heart i wanna wish u a very eventful and a wonderful year ahead.... may all ur wishes come true.. and the smile on our face always remain and may happiness always touch, may god always have his loving care and blessing on you, forever forever and forever........ :)

The plan to celebrate your bday happened all of a sudden and at 10 we had it on our hands now the question was to whisk you away without hurting ur frnds and also with ur consent...

so as it happens my elements leave their hometown in the morning and i from work go to bday boys place and pick him p and go to mac d.. poor boy thinking why on earth has she come all the way from her place to this steel yard to have a burger worth 20 bucks spending 200 bucks on fuel.... :)

so after the burger and chips b boy starts asking wat is it, where are v heading etc so i am sorry my element i had to say half og it to him, i tell him u are coming with guptaji and then the 1st reaction is why are u doing this we might not njoy with him etc and stuff but then when you guys came the smile on his face was awesome he greets you and then walks to guptaji and say the boy talk hello :)

and then we go to his place pick his clothes and off to our destination...

honestly the car helped it really gave us company i swear with the slopes i really did not think we will make it with you oldie but thanks babes you helped us make it, i promise i will love you to death and maintain you...




we reached the hill top and then the gr8 search for a room and finally we got one, it was really beautiful...

it was about 6 when we reached, freshed up and went for a walk to echo point it looked so nice, i wish v could go to our fav place but koi nahi just to be there we will go again... :) clicked pics there and then walked back and the walk back was so serene, we actually had 2 packs befor we went for the walk :P

then we went to kumar for a hokka bloody mila nahi acha hi hua we then went to our room freshened and after bath we sat down for some dudh ki bottle :p

we went on and on and time just flew... and befor we knew it was almost 12 an then i went to the other room cake nikala and lit the candles and came to our room, you were surpirsed right bday boy :) and all high high the candles were blown and then came the ma of all tings the gift, the glasses that i brought by telling you i am buying it for dad ... :) so daddy dearest hope you loved your gift...

the night came and went by, the day eneded but the smile and the happy feeling that happened i hope it lasts forever for you, me and my elemts in tow... :p

then the next morning we came down, thanks my babes (car) she really took care of us and got us down then we went to college, sunday tha sun saan tha and had water just were i met my bestest frnd :D

showed our college and with proudness showed were we played.. :p alag baat hai we also lost a lot of times there :D

we also went to deshmukhs place wish we could stay there... but thats ok we had a wonderful time, met a wonderful person in guptaji and had a rocking group made... :d

just wanna say i hope this will last forever and we will always be there for each other and lastly may all your birthdays be better than the last always :d

love u....

i am sorry...

Please forgive me... i guess you said the truth i never felt the way you did for me... i am sorry.. i screwed it up but i swear i want peace and good things to happen to you always always. please trust me...
i am sorry

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...........The road less travelled...

Today the day seems to be when u sit back and think, the day for retrospection kinda.... :)
cant belive i stuck around at work for 1 year 3 months and 16 days already... phew time just keeps running, in between these 471 days life took thrice the number of turns, all along i have won something, lost something, loved, hated, broke, attached all under one hat one sun...

Seems amazing at times as how time and life really waits for none, in this time i have loved ppl, hurt some ppl, broken some ppl, broke muself, gave away myself, just went the way that i felt i should and honestly the only thing i regeret is not being able to stand by the ppl ihave hurt, i wih i could go aback and change that maybe i would love to go back 5 years ago and chnage the root of it.... But as they saw spilt milk is wasted milk but i pray from the bottom of my heart that i want them to be happy, i swear i never wanted to screw them...




When i sit back i think i have moved far away from my brood as well, my sister went away to UK and today i dont really crib and cry about the fact that she aint here it has become a way of life now... i hope i adjust when she comes back... :) sorry baby..

the other day i was watching this serial " how i met ur mother " where the friend of the guy broke up his relationship cause she thought his flame did not pass the poarch test, i really found it so nice i mean she was married happy but she had the liberty to break her frnds relation cause she gave importance to them being togetehre when ther grow old and play cards on the poarch, how i wish hemant thought the same, but happens and thats why we have the chnace to sit back and think.....

Life moves on and so do we, we usually have 2 roads a road less travelled and a road often taken and its we who deceide to take the risk or not, i wud take tke the road less travelled atleast u have some stories for ur kids when u grow old... :)

ThE Gr8 HuMan MiNd !!!

why is it that people don't care when u don't leave any stone unturned to help them...

i guess that's what human beings all about... when u get something to keep asking for more without thinking how much are u sucking the other person and when it comes to your giving suddenly everything just dries up... seems really funny at times but i guess that's what it is all about...

i had never expected this from that someone from whom i even had a run up with my mom dad, i guess it was not worth it..

what hurts more is the fact that it being taken so casually that the attitude is what hurts.. mai kya karu is the question i mean what do i say after that...

anyways i guess its just not the day for me.. kya bakwaas likh rahi hu mujhe bhi nahi pata... i need a break man i really need a break.............

April Fool's Day.... :)

April fools day and i have already been made a fool today :) infact last night.... Dv got me this time bloody wat happened to me i have no clue when he said he is going back asap cause he needs to go to the OZ Land i was like as they say in Hindi..

Pair k neeche se zameen kisak gai

....

Today is rupa's birthday...wished her this morning.. how can i ever forget her bday.. i was made such a big fool 12 years ago... :)

sometimes when i sit back i really feel like laughing hard at myself i knew everything its just that i was keeping my eyes closed.... that itself qualifies me to be the fool on april fools day... :)

the biggest tamasha of fools is coming soom the gr8 general elections... yesterday when SC ruled out sanjay dutt from contesting he comes over to blame UPA for not letting him contest plus the gr8 Mr. Amar Singh goes on to carry out a full length press conference for the same.. i mean how can ppl think we are so stupids to fall for the trap, why should they let someone like sanjay dutt contest i mean what good has he done in his life.



I am not here to judge him on his life but for the fact that he had a troubled teens with his mom dying, then drugs and then jail and also the blast case he has seen it all, he must be a good human being not denying that but with the records of jail should he be contesting at all. I mean here we have all the fourums on the net in papers going out to try and make INDIA the corrupt free nation and all, no crimals for elections stand etc does Mr. Sanajy Dutt think he should even stand for elections have the Nov 26th attack, morally he should himself stand away...

The other day i was reading this report of how the kashmiri's have turned around, they admit that ppl like umar abdhulla have really brought about some kinda change in their always-being-bombed state, this is what a true leader stands for, he has been doing something , what have the rest done , what has the gr8 dame Miss. Mayavati done, what has sanjay dutt done and what has his elder brother [:)]

mere bade bhai

amar singh done other than being arm candy for amitabh sir the actor.



I hope someday these fools realise that when on 1st April ppl are made fool for the 1st time we become fools the 2 nd time we may become a fool again but the 3rd time we know wats coming and then we dont take it lying low, but yes there is a segment of ppl who no matter what no matter what day just keep making fools out of themselves and these dutt, mayavati , singh etc are at their best..... As they say

har kutte ka din aata hai

pata nahi kab koun vote karde and yeh jeet jaye....

:)

Happy April Fools Day...

trouble in pradise..... please dont blow it

trouble brewing..... not just simply trouble its deep trouble, it need to happen and happen soon as i am loosing my peace of mind and so is he..
He has been in an important meeting and its really very important for him and because of this he is loosing it and its affecting us.. He puts it very pyaar se but i know deep down its scaring him and because of this i cant afford to loose him, i cant...
Please just happen.......................................................

i beg of u............