5 days to go............

5 days to go...
5 days of being under the same roof for 9 hours, 5 days of saying "can i drop u home??" , 5 days of feeling of being there just a call away in the real sense.... its gonna be over...

How am i feeling ?? i really don't know its kinda botched up i am sad i am frustrated i am feeling lost but yet i am happy i am happy to see the person getting out of this mess and i am happy that the person will be better avenues rather than this blood sucking place... but is my being happy gonna be able to overcome my feeling of this emptiness, i really don't know..

U know in life there are times when we really don't know why is this happening whether the outcome is gonna be in our favor or not but that's the beautiful thing about this mystery not knowing whats in store... Yesterday i saw this movie and there was this situation where the guy is returning back home and when he was thrown out he came to stay with this girl, she hates some of his habits the way he screws up the house, but she always stood by him, got him his job, and he in turn learns to make eggs for her, and at last when his father realizes that he is doing good he calls him back home and loo the guy is on his way back home... not realizing that she is gonna be alone now, not realizing that she does not want him to leave, cause he does not understand what she feels for him..... somewhere i feel the same i feel he is leaving my house and i don't want him to go but he needs to but atleast i hope he does not forget me i hope we can still make it......

Situations are scray i am scraed about things on one side and feels something spl on the other i just hope ma u be with me and help me sail through... Please be with me always...

and hey u boy, have a wonderful life beyond this smelly shity place but dont forget the ppl u lived with dont forget me.........

love u