Its been ages since i actually scribbled something here.. :)
In a Happy Space... got married.. volllaaaaa :p
Sometimes when i look back at life it feels funny, where did i start where have i traveled too... with each passing days as we grow older it just knocks you that its true whatever happens happens for the best... I have loved, hated and loved and fallen and stood up and here i am today. Its up to us how we see it, we could just be cribbing or else turn things into the way we want.
I dont even know what is the agenda today that i feel like writing about, just a run through memories and dark lanes of past kinda made me smile today.
Will try and write often, i am loosing the grip of the flow in writing, i have to actually think.. lol.. i guess it comes with age.. goshhhh am i growing old...
Friday, April 17, 2015
Tuesday, November 12, 2013
Mumbai Musafirs...Where the journey never ends..!!!!
Its been about Three years now that we started of with something just out of boredom.... Something we thought we could do better without really knowing that we would come so far..... Yup Mumbai Musafirs that the name, that my baby, something i am so proud of, something that will makes me smile if i have to have my "have i made it large" moment :p
Come to think of it, it was 3 years ago , rather 2 years 11 months ago that we just decided that we are gonna have our first ride. To think of it now , it was a quickie over a few drinks at Fusion Dhabba :) we had no name. we knew nothing about the game , had no clue what we were getting into all we 4 knew was that we wanna do something just for fun :)
So on the 13th of Dec , we decided that Trippers would be the name, till a friend pointed out saying "wat kind of name is that, sounds more like a strip club".. LOL
We scratched our brains, our knees but would not come up with anything better.. Trippers, Wanderers, Bikers etc is all we could manage, finally it was Jejo who got us the logo and the name from someone at work.. "Mumbai Musafirs" estd 2010..!!! :)
The first ride happened in Jan 2011 and it still feels like just yesterday... Since Jan 2011 till Nov 2013 have come a long way, we have clocked 20,000+kms, made friends, made family, fell in love, fell out of love, learnt a hell lot. They say experience is the best teacher , they were so right..
It is more like we were out there to just have fun instead we made loads of memories....
Life surprises us in the weirdest manner that we can never think off, i mean 3 years ago i had no clue i would be doing something like this, i would bloody own a bullet, its like whatever stupid funny whims and fancies i had it was all true. While in college i used to tell by then bf that i want to ride a bike, that i love biking, but never thought i meant anything of it cause then it was more about me and him going somewhere by the cheapest mode of transport :p The bike was a BOXER :p 80kmpl... LOL
I guess this is what we call destiny... i mean Nishan and i were not even talking for about 10 years after school and one fine day out of the blue , one bloody happy high night and Facebook for company nishan and me started talking again... lol i still cant remember a single line we spoke :) it was Aug 2010. He was in Canada tat time , he came back to India i think in Oct and gave me a call and said lets meet up.. Felt really weird , like u know u are gonna be face to face with someone who u did not speak to for 10 years but u were best frnds while in school, u know giving up on someone just like tat.. We met up.. spoke about general stuff.. very formal.... One of the toughest catching up ever.. Then comes a day on FB when i read a post from nishan stating that he is going on a ride, i pitch myself that please take me along.. somehow his pillion does not turn up and i get a chance to go. I get to catch up with Jejo, Sweta, Medon and rinki.. Met jejo after almost 11 years after school...
We went on that ride and bus that is all that took for the idea of MM to germinates.. So on 13th Dec 2010 jejo sweta nishan and moi we together happened to become proud parents of this little thing called.......
MUMBAI MUSAFIRS.......where the journey never ends...!!!
Come to think of it, it was 3 years ago , rather 2 years 11 months ago that we just decided that we are gonna have our first ride. To think of it now , it was a quickie over a few drinks at Fusion Dhabba :) we had no name. we knew nothing about the game , had no clue what we were getting into all we 4 knew was that we wanna do something just for fun :)
So on the 13th of Dec , we decided that Trippers would be the name, till a friend pointed out saying "wat kind of name is that, sounds more like a strip club".. LOL
We scratched our brains, our knees but would not come up with anything better.. Trippers, Wanderers, Bikers etc is all we could manage, finally it was Jejo who got us the logo and the name from someone at work.. "Mumbai Musafirs" estd 2010..!!! :)
The first ride happened in Jan 2011 and it still feels like just yesterday... Since Jan 2011 till Nov 2013 have come a long way, we have clocked 20,000+kms, made friends, made family, fell in love, fell out of love, learnt a hell lot. They say experience is the best teacher , they were so right..
It is more like we were out there to just have fun instead we made loads of memories....
Life surprises us in the weirdest manner that we can never think off, i mean 3 years ago i had no clue i would be doing something like this, i would bloody own a bullet, its like whatever stupid funny whims and fancies i had it was all true. While in college i used to tell by then bf that i want to ride a bike, that i love biking, but never thought i meant anything of it cause then it was more about me and him going somewhere by the cheapest mode of transport :p The bike was a BOXER :p 80kmpl... LOL
I guess this is what we call destiny... i mean Nishan and i were not even talking for about 10 years after school and one fine day out of the blue , one bloody happy high night and Facebook for company nishan and me started talking again... lol i still cant remember a single line we spoke :) it was Aug 2010. He was in Canada tat time , he came back to India i think in Oct and gave me a call and said lets meet up.. Felt really weird , like u know u are gonna be face to face with someone who u did not speak to for 10 years but u were best frnds while in school, u know giving up on someone just like tat.. We met up.. spoke about general stuff.. very formal.... One of the toughest catching up ever.. Then comes a day on FB when i read a post from nishan stating that he is going on a ride, i pitch myself that please take me along.. somehow his pillion does not turn up and i get a chance to go. I get to catch up with Jejo, Sweta, Medon and rinki.. Met jejo after almost 11 years after school...
We went on that ride and bus that is all that took for the idea of MM to germinates.. So on 13th Dec 2010 jejo sweta nishan and moi we together happened to become proud parents of this little thing called.......
MUMBAI MUSAFIRS.......where the journey never ends...!!!
Wednesday, May 29, 2013
Does everything really need a header.. !!! does it ??
Just felt like scribbling something.. No work at the desk and nothing to do really gets ur mind working... sitting on the desk you can actually start a trip to the world out there and yes Google does help a bit in that by the pictographs and details.. but sometimes it also gets u wondering how can u go deep inside a human mind.. its like a castle so difficult to beat yet can be easily bought down if u have the right access...
No not trying to get into a pravachan.... just a thought...
Anyways this comes from the fact that recently had a trip to malvan and back in the 16th century a gentleman named Shivaji actually thought so much ahead of time... Went to this fort which is in water (sindhudurg tats the name - google it :D ) made on a set of rocks which was in the middle of the Arabian sea.. has sweet water facility i.e drinking water, used the same rocks to make the boundary wall, had a tunnel to connect outside a 8 km tunnel.. i mean how man how.. today we have all the means and technology yet we have cracking walls, falling buildings... but tat 16th century fort still stands tall today...
History has lot to learnt from... !!!
No not trying to get into a pravachan.... just a thought...
Anyways this comes from the fact that recently had a trip to malvan and back in the 16th century a gentleman named Shivaji actually thought so much ahead of time... Went to this fort which is in water (sindhudurg tats the name - google it :D ) made on a set of rocks which was in the middle of the Arabian sea.. has sweet water facility i.e drinking water, used the same rocks to make the boundary wall, had a tunnel to connect outside a 8 km tunnel.. i mean how man how.. today we have all the means and technology yet we have cracking walls, falling buildings... but tat 16th century fort still stands tall today...
History has lot to learnt from... !!!
Monday, March 18, 2013
Little wonders of life :)
Life indeed throws u surprises :) and i love them.. :)
Have u ever thought that an anonymous frnd tat u know , u and that frnd must have crossed paths, must have shared the same air, played in the same compound , have had the same set of frnd yet u are unknown...
This one is for my virtual frnd @illusions of reality who actually gave me a name once..
:)
Life is good.. :)
Have u ever thought that an anonymous frnd tat u know , u and that frnd must have crossed paths, must have shared the same air, played in the same compound , have had the same set of frnd yet u are unknown...
This one is for my virtual frnd @illusions of reality who actually gave me a name once..
:)
Life is good.. :)
Monday, February 25, 2013
I Lived !!!
Well been there done that.... the trip to Tawang happened.... and trust me it felt like i lived my dream there... i could say its beautiful, awesome blah blah cause whatever adjective u use for the NE its true but for me it felt like HOME...!! i don't know why but there is something about the mountains tat makes me feel home....
I am fat i cant climb mountains they make me sick, i cant breath, i cant handle cold yet i long to go back to the mountains again... its like they call me... :) i guess i must have been a mountain person in some lifetime.. :p
As they say ... " Anyone who's stood atop a mountain pass knows that indescribable feeling, one part euphoria, one part melancholy...!!"
The picture was taken on the way to Tawang from the Bumla pass... i cud have stayed there all my life... i don't why i just wanted to walk on those clouds.... it felt like HEAVEN... i think if there is another world like the hell and heaven, this had to be the pearly gates...
There was nothing but PEACE around.... i dont know what to write cause words are not enough to describe this feeling, this place...
All i would say i was a tourist once but with NE i became a traveler...!!!
I am fat i cant climb mountains they make me sick, i cant breath, i cant handle cold yet i long to go back to the mountains again... its like they call me... :) i guess i must have been a mountain person in some lifetime.. :p
As they say ... " Anyone who's stood atop a mountain pass knows that indescribable feeling, one part euphoria, one part melancholy...!!"
The picture was taken on the way to Tawang from the Bumla pass... i cud have stayed there all my life... i don't why i just wanted to walk on those clouds.... it felt like HEAVEN... i think if there is another world like the hell and heaven, this had to be the pearly gates...
There was nothing but PEACE around.... i dont know what to write cause words are not enough to describe this feeling, this place...
All i would say i was a tourist once but with NE i became a traveler...!!!
Friday, October 5, 2012
Ride, trips and a piece of life.. !!!
So many things to write so many things to do, right now all i wanna do is take a break :p
i need a holiday... guess what i am hitting the Arunachal Pradesh this year end and i cant wait for these few days anymore.. !!
Travelling gives me so much , in a way it helps me not only do the cliche "unwind" but yes its gives me wings, it satisfies me, it makes me happy and yes if i take a grp of frnds along and they like it it gets high :)
AP happened by chance , i totally believe in destiny now :) 2nd incident boss.. i always wanted to go to tawang and had no clue i would end up there so soon...
I asked for it and lo it was done and the best part it was planned so well before time that it feels likes its been done just within a blink of the eyes..
lol lol lol... i am happy.. oh btw here the clouds are rumbling i wonder if the rains are done and gone or its still the rainy season...
will we get snow in dec in twang ??? now tats a question i need to Google..
off to Google.. bye for now :)
i need a holiday... guess what i am hitting the Arunachal Pradesh this year end and i cant wait for these few days anymore.. !!
Travelling gives me so much , in a way it helps me not only do the cliche "unwind" but yes its gives me wings, it satisfies me, it makes me happy and yes if i take a grp of frnds along and they like it it gets high :)
AP happened by chance , i totally believe in destiny now :) 2nd incident boss.. i always wanted to go to tawang and had no clue i would end up there so soon...
I asked for it and lo it was done and the best part it was planned so well before time that it feels likes its been done just within a blink of the eyes..
lol lol lol... i am happy.. oh btw here the clouds are rumbling i wonder if the rains are done and gone or its still the rainy season...
will we get snow in dec in twang ??? now tats a question i need to Google..
off to Google.. bye for now :)
Friday, June 29, 2012
What should i name u.... !!
I dont know what to write today... i am not bored , nor has anything significant happened, nor did i make something happen, nothing at all... but i wanna write maybe just go jhdbfjbfgskbfjkbfj :p
Lame things did i did today, woke up late i am serious the TV is eating on my sleep... last night i had no clue what to do there was DDLJ on one channel toh serials on the other..... spoilt by choice u see... :p
coming back to this morning i had to drag myself out of the bed, not that i don't do that everyday but today was extra special.. the fact that tomorrow is Saturday made it even more difficult cause i work on Saturdays.... ya i know u don't have to twitch on that...
My frnds are leaving for Leh tomorrow.. i am so J man i wish i had a bike beneath my ass and off to LEH i wud have been... last year in Aug when i went to LEH and to the beautiful KASHMIR... those 8 days were pure trance.. nasha of a different level... no daru no smoke no maal can get u there :p
i miss LEH... wanna hit the roads again for Leh.. !!!
as of now i am sitting here in front of the pc.. thinking abt abt the shit load of work that i need to do but dont want to and hence scribbling something :p
Like FB says "Whats on your mind" - i wanna fly high... that on my mind.. on this day i wanna fly so high that i can soar up in the sky and no one can touch me there.. tats hat i wanna do.. :)
Whats on your mind.. ??? i guess it wud stop this nonsense.. :p so its buh byeeeeeeeeee !! :p
Lame things did i did today, woke up late i am serious the TV is eating on my sleep... last night i had no clue what to do there was DDLJ on one channel toh serials on the other..... spoilt by choice u see... :p
coming back to this morning i had to drag myself out of the bed, not that i don't do that everyday but today was extra special.. the fact that tomorrow is Saturday made it even more difficult cause i work on Saturdays.... ya i know u don't have to twitch on that...
My frnds are leaving for Leh tomorrow.. i am so J man i wish i had a bike beneath my ass and off to LEH i wud have been... last year in Aug when i went to LEH and to the beautiful KASHMIR... those 8 days were pure trance.. nasha of a different level... no daru no smoke no maal can get u there :p
i miss LEH... wanna hit the roads again for Leh.. !!!
as of now i am sitting here in front of the pc.. thinking abt abt the shit load of work that i need to do but dont want to and hence scribbling something :p
Like FB says "Whats on your mind" - i wanna fly high... that on my mind.. on this day i wanna fly so high that i can soar up in the sky and no one can touch me there.. tats hat i wanna do.. :)
Whats on your mind.. ??? i guess it wud stop this nonsense.. :p so its buh byeeeeeeeeee !! :p
Monday, March 5, 2012
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
A YeAR ThAt WeNt bY !! :p
A year that went by, from my last birthday to this birthday...
Well loads of things took shape, have a cat, have a bike club rather am a owner of a bike club , lived my dream which i waited for 6 years - LEH, saw 11 places in the last one year, went from confused state of mnd about being in love to am i in love to yes i am in love to are u sure i am in love state :p , read a lot , worked my ass off, partied hard, drank hard, in short I lived.. !!!
thats Cheeku... my love.. !!!
LEh - This is what dreams are made off.. !!!
Life has been beautiful so far.. !!
Well loads of things took shape, have a cat, have a bike club rather am a owner of a bike club , lived my dream which i waited for 6 years - LEH, saw 11 places in the last one year, went from confused state of mnd about being in love to am i in love to yes i am in love to are u sure i am in love state :p , read a lot , worked my ass off, partied hard, drank hard, in short I lived.. !!!
thats Cheeku... my love.. !!!
The Mumbai Musafirs... the club we formed..
LEh - This is what dreams are made off.. !!!
Life has been beautiful so far.. !!
Monday, September 13, 2010
It was my b'day.... had a gr8 one and a worst one too...
Best for the fact that i had a gr8 party at home.. parents are damn cool and awesome... bad for the fact that i still don't know where i stand in a certain way...wat is it that i am, wat is it that shld ask or wat is it that i shld expect... i have no clue.. i am bloody past half my life and i am not sure where i stand or wat i want.. i dont know.. i dont know what i need to do or what i shld expect.. i have been cursed for life i guess...
Best for the fact that i had a gr8 party at home.. parents are damn cool and awesome... bad for the fact that i still don't know where i stand in a certain way...wat is it that i am, wat is it that shld ask or wat is it that i shld expect... i have no clue.. i am bloody past half my life and i am not sure where i stand or wat i want.. i dont know.. i dont know what i need to do or what i shld expect.. i have been cursed for life i guess...
Thursday, December 31, 2009
HaPpY NeW YeAr !!!!!!
Its the time of the year....
....when all of us have happily discarded the old calendars and put up new brighter ones.
....when we look back at the past year and evaluate it in terms of losses and gains, we also plan for the year ahead with lots of kept unkept resolutions lots of hopes, new dreams, aims and goals.
Yes the year 2009 has ended and we have already stepped into 2010.
Just as every passing year has some significance attached to it, this one has been significant for me.
When I look back and see that I've made it through various ups and downs this year, I feel proud and blessed for having your best wishes and prayers all through by my side.
And hence on the first day of the year I take the opportunity to THANK each and every one of my family and friends(virtual friends too :) ) for all the support you have extended and made me smile through the hardships. I’d like you to know, it means a lot to me.
On that note.. here’s wishing you and your loved ones prosperity,good health,wealth happiness and abundant blessings.
May 2010 bring with it all the wonderful things you hoped for…
Happy New Year !!!!!
Thursday, December 3, 2009
Tomorrow i am off to a small vacation................
A vacation i badly need... a vacation to a place where no network you can access.. trust me there is a place where u cant access network and that too within 2 hours from the city of BOMBAY.. !! Amazing aint it.. !!!
Aint it something we all would love to be at i mean far away from the maddening crowd, the local train, the bus rides, the heat..everything..... U know here when we look out of the office glass ( we spend most of the time there ) all we see is buildings, industries but hardly any birds and ya we hardly hear the birds chirp these days...
i remember when i was in school right outside my window there used to be this golmohar tree and it had so many sparrows and at times these little fellows used to come inside the room... i used to call them "chiddimai" :) (how stupid) but now no chiddimai's at all.. they seem to have disappeared completely.... but guess what the place i am heading for has loads of them...
U know the best part about this place is the house, it a thatched roof house, with this gobar lipa hua floor and hence colddddddddd when this khatiya outside on the veranda with a beautiful mountain view... wat else would u ask for !!
i have been there like 50 times already but everytime i go there i discover something new, last time i went trekking on the mountain and saw these beautiful birds and flowers.. i wonder wats in store this time....
Its almost the end of the week... and i cant wait for mornng tomorrow....
more when i am back...................... :)
Friday, November 13, 2009
!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am confused !! i am feeling like shit, i am feeling used.. but i know its not true, but then if thats not true where is he heading tonight and with whom and for what ??
But then i only said do whatever u wish to but come back home.. i only said that now now why am i feeling like this..
Am i not good enough anymore have i got boring.. i am scared i will loose him.. i do everything just because i want him to be happy but by him doing all this its hurting me.. why did i give someone so much space that it gave them the right to hurt me.. i did want to feel the special thing again.. i tried to be with ppl who feel for me but tat was not my place and here i am facing the fucking situation again the same thing happening again i am clueless in life again..
Honestly i wish to be dead cause everything is killing me and also for the fact that i don't have the courage inside me to face the reality.. i cant really do without him.. my hands go to the phone to call him but i should not cause i am trapping him thats what he felt. he also thought i might try to screw his life... how can i when i really wish to spend my life with him how can i think about screwing his life...
He says on phone to his frnd dont tell her i am going there..why not as if i have the rights to stop him..i dont.. Am at work and i swear i cant concentrate i am not able to leave my personal and professional life aside..i chocked my own life..i swaer when it started off it was special and i never in my worst dreams thought i would come to this point. Never did i think i will feel so cheap so used and so unwanted. Does he not feel the same. Does he ever think about me.. Does he ever feel what i feel about him.. The answers are NO and i need to come out of dreams and be back to reality..
But i love him and thats something which i cant throw away.. i promise never again will i ever feel anything about anyone.. it happened once and i made the mistake of making it happen again.. i cheated on myself.. i screwed me.. well i guess i deserve this..
just that i hope someday he feels the way i do and i hope its not late..
But then i only said do whatever u wish to but come back home.. i only said that now now why am i feeling like this..
Am i not good enough anymore have i got boring.. i am scared i will loose him.. i do everything just because i want him to be happy but by him doing all this its hurting me.. why did i give someone so much space that it gave them the right to hurt me.. i did want to feel the special thing again.. i tried to be with ppl who feel for me but tat was not my place and here i am facing the fucking situation again the same thing happening again i am clueless in life again..
Honestly i wish to be dead cause everything is killing me and also for the fact that i don't have the courage inside me to face the reality.. i cant really do without him.. my hands go to the phone to call him but i should not cause i am trapping him thats what he felt. he also thought i might try to screw his life... how can i when i really wish to spend my life with him how can i think about screwing his life...
He says on phone to his frnd dont tell her i am going there..why not as if i have the rights to stop him..i dont.. Am at work and i swear i cant concentrate i am not able to leave my personal and professional life aside..i chocked my own life..i swaer when it started off it was special and i never in my worst dreams thought i would come to this point. Never did i think i will feel so cheap so used and so unwanted. Does he not feel the same. Does he ever think about me.. Does he ever feel what i feel about him.. The answers are NO and i need to come out of dreams and be back to reality..
But i love him and thats something which i cant throw away.. i promise never again will i ever feel anything about anyone.. it happened once and i made the mistake of making it happen again.. i cheated on myself.. i screwed me.. well i guess i deserve this..
just that i hope someday he feels the way i do and i hope its not late..
Thursday, November 5, 2009
life up in smoke..............
As the ciggie burns in my hand i can see my life burning away like that....why am i cramping hi life.. he was supposed to be my best buddy my soul my mirror my reflection why am i asking him to become me....
i know what i am doing i know why i am doing this but honestly i have no control on myself...i cant bear this dirty mind of mine.. i am cribbing like a child to make him be with me but i also know this will make him hate me make him go away...but i cant bear it re.. i cant think straight i cant be normal.. that day i really wished he stayed back i really wished... i needed him i still do but i need to accept that he has a life he has a way of living and i really am bloody no body to make him live the way i want..
i am so insecure about him going away...i wish i had never meet him...but u know what he is my angel and i cant screw his life like this..sometimes i think i shld go away work some other place and maybe that's my solution but if i do this he will be hurt...not maybe i know for sure i will hurt him.. u know i sometimes think infact i know i love him.. i wish to be with him all my life and sometimes i think i shld ask him or at least tell him but i know if i do and he cant reciprocate the same he will feel really bad cause he might think i do this i do that and he aint able to do this for me.. i dont want him to feel guilty about anything anything t all.. i love him more all this... i am sorry...
mujhe nai pata wats in store for us...mujhe nai pata.. i think maine jo kiya hai uska result hai but the fact is i am sorry and i really mean it that i am honest when it comes to dv i cant screw his life.. i need to get away.. today u know what i smsed him smsed him and actually made him agree to come here.. how cud i.. u know what he smsed he will be there in good time and bad... fuck what am i.. some peice of shit... i need to control myself... god help me... as the cigiee burns i dont want to fade away.. somewhere i really wish that we be together but not by screwing his life i want him to be there only if he wants to...
i cn burn but i dnt want to fade away from him....
love u.. i really do...............................................
Thursday, October 29, 2009
angel
as they say when u really wish something it happens, i wish he came and he did...... my angel....... my frnd........my bump chum...... my sweetheart......... he is right here in front of me sleeping his ass off.. :D
had a wonderful day today.went out ate the most awesome food totally veg but still i loved it... i so wish i can do it all my life.. i so wish i was associated with him all my life/........
all i wanna say i love u my angel and i really wish u felt the same.....i love u ass......
shld go now agar uth gaya na toh meri toh... :P
love u d. !!!!
had a wonderful day today.went out ate the most awesome food totally veg but still i loved it... i so wish i can do it all my life.. i so wish i was associated with him all my life/........
all i wanna say i love u my angel and i really wish u felt the same.....i love u ass......
shld go now agar uth gaya na toh meri toh... :P
love u d. !!!!
Monday, October 5, 2009
5 days to go............
5 days to go...
5 days of being under the same roof for 9 hours, 5 days of saying "can i drop u home??" , 5 days of feeling of being there just a call away in the real sense.... its gonna be over...
How am i feeling ?? i really don't know its kinda botched up i am sad i am frustrated i am feeling lost but yet i am happy i am happy to see the person getting out of this mess and i am happy that the person will be better avenues rather than this blood sucking place... but is my being happy gonna be able to overcome my feeling of this emptiness, i really don't know..
U know in life there are times when we really don't know why is this happening whether the outcome is gonna be in our favor or not but that's the beautiful thing about this mystery not knowing whats in store... Yesterday i saw this movie and there was this situation where the guy is returning back home and when he was thrown out he came to stay with this girl, she hates some of his habits the way he screws up the house, but she always stood by him, got him his job, and he in turn learns to make eggs for her, and at last when his father realizes that he is doing good he calls him back home and loo the guy is on his way back home... not realizing that she is gonna be alone now, not realizing that she does not want him to leave, cause he does not understand what she feels for him..... somewhere i feel the same i feel he is leaving my house and i don't want him to go but he needs to but atleast i hope he does not forget me i hope we can still make it......
Situations are scray i am scraed about things on one side and feels something spl on the other i just hope ma u be with me and help me sail through... Please be with me always...
and hey u boy, have a wonderful life beyond this smelly shity place but dont forget the ppl u lived with dont forget me.........
love u
Sunday, May 17, 2009
helppppppppppppppppppppppppppppp
wats bloody wrong with me boss.. why am i behaving like a 1st std kid.. mujhe kya pagal kutte ne kaata hai kya.. mujhe kuch samjh nahi aa raha hai..
why the hell expectations yaar.. u know it screws up things mai kyu kar rahi hu yeh sab...
god wats it with me, last 3 - 4 days have been orst boss, i cant handle this, i hate this unseen this not sure feelings. i like being sure yaar.. yeh kya ho raha hai...
i mean this gal who i havent even seen dont have any slightest idea of why am i getting hyper about her, mai kyu insecure ho rahi hu yaar...
there was nothing in the first place to be insecure about cause there is nothing brewing why am i getting so possessive yaar, i dont have anyone to talk to about all this i am really gonna go crazy yaar...
he was never mine so why am i behaving as if he is mine why the fuck, i always said he is my best friend now why am i screwing up the relatioon.. mujhe kya ho raha hai yaar...
god i dont wanna feel like this pls get me out of this plsssss why am i being so insecure , he will be gone tomorrow no matter how hard i try no matter what i think then why am i feeling this today, please get me mind cleared out of all this pls god pls...............................
why the hell expectations yaar.. u know it screws up things mai kyu kar rahi hu yeh sab...
god wats it with me, last 3 - 4 days have been orst boss, i cant handle this, i hate this unseen this not sure feelings. i like being sure yaar.. yeh kya ho raha hai...
i mean this gal who i havent even seen dont have any slightest idea of why am i getting hyper about her, mai kyu insecure ho rahi hu yaar...
there was nothing in the first place to be insecure about cause there is nothing brewing why am i getting so possessive yaar, i dont have anyone to talk to about all this i am really gonna go crazy yaar...
he was never mine so why am i behaving as if he is mine why the fuck, i always said he is my best friend now why am i screwing up the relatioon.. mujhe kya ho raha hai yaar...
god i dont wanna feel like this pls get me out of this plsssss why am i being so insecure , he will be gone tomorrow no matter how hard i try no matter what i think then why am i feeling this today, please get me mind cleared out of all this pls god pls...............................
Monday, May 4, 2009
HaPpY BiRtHdAy !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
happy happy happy birthday............... !!!!!!!!!!
well firstly from the bottom of my heart i wanna wish u a very eventful and a wonderful year ahead.... may all ur wishes come true.. and the smile on our face always remain and may happiness always touch, may god always have his loving care and blessing on you, forever forever and forever........ :)
The plan to celebrate your bday happened all of a sudden and at 10 we had it on our hands now the question was to whisk you away without hurting ur frnds and also with ur consent...
so as it happens my elements leave their hometown in the morning and i from work go to bday boys place and pick him p and go to mac d.. poor boy thinking why on earth has she come all the way from her place to this steel yard to have a burger worth 20 bucks spending 200 bucks on fuel.... :)
so after the burger and chips b boy starts asking wat is it, where are v heading etc so i am sorry my element i had to say half og it to him, i tell him u are coming with guptaji and then the 1st reaction is why are u doing this we might not njoy with him etc and stuff but then when you guys came the smile on his face was awesome he greets you and then walks to guptaji and say the boy talk hello :)
and then we go to his place pick his clothes and off to our destination...
honestly the car helped it really gave us company i swear with the slopes i really did not think we will make it with you oldie but thanks babes you helped us make it, i promise i will love you to death and maintain you...
we reached the hill top and then the gr8 search for a room and finally we got one, it was really beautiful...
it was about 6 when we reached, freshed up and went for a walk to echo point it looked so nice, i wish v could go to our fav place but koi nahi just to be there we will go again... :) clicked pics there and then walked back and the walk back was so serene, we actually had 2 packs befor we went for the walk :P
then we went to kumar for a hokka bloody mila nahi acha hi hua we then went to our room freshened and after bath we sat down for some dudh ki bottle :p
we went on and on and time just flew... and befor we knew it was almost 12 an then i went to the other room cake nikala and lit the candles and came to our room, you were surpirsed right bday boy :) and all high high the candles were blown and then came the ma of all tings the gift, the glasses that i brought by telling you i am buying it for dad ... :) so daddy dearest hope you loved your gift...
the night came and went by, the day eneded but the smile and the happy feeling that happened i hope it lasts forever for you, me and my elemts in tow... :p
then the next morning we came down, thanks my babes (car) she really took care of us and got us down then we went to college, sunday tha sun saan tha and had water just were i met my bestest frnd :D
showed our college and with proudness showed were we played.. :p alag baat hai we also lost a lot of times there :D
we also went to deshmukhs place wish we could stay there... but thats ok we had a wonderful time, met a wonderful person in guptaji and had a rocking group made... :d
just wanna say i hope this will last forever and we will always be there for each other and lastly may all your birthdays be better than the last always :d
love u....
Friday, May 1, 2009
i am sorry...
Please forgive me... i guess you said the truth i never felt the way you did for me... i am sorry.. i screwed it up but i swear i want peace and good things to happen to you always always. please trust me...
i am sorry
i am sorry
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