2008................................2009

First Things First, happy new year, dont know how reads my crap but whoever does wish u a very happy new year..........

well start has been crappy already :) jo socha tha woh hua nahi and jo hua woh socha nahi...
to put the long story in short, it got messed up, i mean i got dv all the way from kgarh and he got no drink no food foolish of me that i could not make it smooth..

anyways feeling really bad sad and foolish about it...

lots to speculate and ponder about 2008... lots of downs and a few ups.. Completed a whole year in my office which i never thought i wud stick around for, sometimes i wonder what did i gain working here yes personal gains i agree but what else i mean all i do if i put it in hindi is "khursi garam" i mean i have not seen a site nor seen what actually happens at a site all i am doing is co ordination i guess someone not an engg too who sits here can get it done. an if we talk about money, baby i have no idea where on earth have i spent the 1 lac plus i dont know how muach i have earned has gone.. :) funny right even i am amused..

Anyway its been almost 3 and 1/2 months that rimpa has gone and it really seems like hell that she aint here i sleep alone at nights now, somehow its empty even if i try hard to mingle and mix , go home late, drink, dv everything but that bloody hollow feelings just keeps growing, come back rimpu, miss u yaar..

talking about downs toh ppl got hurt because of me, a lot of my decisions maybe they were wrong but i think it will prove right some years down the line, when u cant live with something for all ur life it makes no sense in carrying it. but i am sorry to have decided on my own without taking consensus.

another down was hemant, he really let the frndship down i mean how cud he, fine u got married no issues but when he knew there are problems he should have atleast made it a point to come down and meet, i guess he too must be thinking the same, lets see how 2009 and what 2009 brings to our frndship.

well this year ipsita called brought back a lot of old memories, then came shilpa, and it killed me, cant belive the man i was with for a long time i never knew him funny na... anyways he too must have had a shocker when he got to know that i was involved too....to be honest i really did not want all this to happen to him i mean his life he wants it he takes it his way, had i been in ipsita's place i wud have maybe not called me cause after she spoke to his parents i wud have stopped. anyways to each his own......

hmmm lots of things happening which i dont know about which i dont know why and wat will happen, i am just walking the path somewhere i know i am gonna have a big fall maybe i wont be able to handle it but still i am walking the path, as they say when u have to choose between 2 paths choose the one where u havent walked before i choose it a nameless a faceless path wonder will will i end up...... hope it ends in a positive manner but to be honest not really epecting anything i mean its the expectations that screw things up......

anyways hope this new years brings about positive vibes in everyones life hope it makes a brighter year for everyone, and yes hope the nameless faceless situtations turns into something for better for worst st least something.............

:) :)